How to overcome HATE? Hate is one emotion which I actually hate. I have not allowed this to creep into my system even after someone butchered me completely in past. But this time I find it extremely difficult to overcome this emotion. But I ask myself that why should someone hate another human. Isn’t it…Read More
Is that depression? First month of 2017 is about to be over and I just can not wait for it to leave me. Please F Off. I keep telling this to my friends that the year has not started on a good note for me- personally and professionally. There were things I had put my…Read More
I am all dressed today with blow-dried hair, red lipstick, kohl, tights with nice black and white sweater. standing in my fancy boots. I am looking pretty awesome, I know and I also know that behind kohl eyes are deep emotions of despair. You can’t see me today and why do I care looking good when I actually feel empty inside.
Waiting at my usual metro station I kept staring at the tracks in front of me and it hits me. I can’t do this anymore. Per chi? For whom? I don’t realize the space around me and I start to sob like I just got off from phone with a news of someone dearly being passed away. I drop down to my knees with eyes n nose full of teary water and an open mouth with painful sob sounds. No one comes to save me from this embarrassment and I cry more. I cover my face with my palms and pray to God to take my life as I have done enough damage in one life to my own self. Let me start again.please. Give me one more chance.
Loud metro siren comes buzzing and breaks my chain of thoughts. Here I was standing tall with sad eyes which were dreaming of sobbing just a nano second ago. I take a deep breath and ask my broken spirit to get her ass off from floor and pretend for one more day. Let’s bring a show together my friend…just once more.
She doesn’t listen but I have to get on the metro so I walk towards the metro and like the loser she is, she runs and comes to metro behind me.