Its a sad day!
I do not want to write about my regime today. Did I wake up early? Did I exercised? As that does not matter. what matters right now for me to stay afloat, to not get bogged down, to continue fighting and to be waiting for the ray of light in this darkest hour.
I can not share much about my feelings with you all on this blog but all I can say is some times I get tired and I feel that I have done enough and now I have to only wait for things to turn out good, which is never a good way to live life as before you even begin you have given the control to ”Destiny’ which plays by his own rules.
One vote of advice I will give today is: If something bad is happening in your life and stopping you from swimming to the shore but you are getting the sinking feeling like you are just dawning into deep ocean then let it be. Its best to feel the sadness now rather then telling yourself lies that this is going to be Okay and that I am fine and that it does not matter a lot to me. Because when you do not believe in the pain then at the same time you do not believe in the hope. Let it be. If you are sad then just acknowledge the feeling and listen to its voice and bare with it. keep it alive in you like a burning candle which will eventually show you a path but yes its important to have one eye at the shore as you do not want to drift too far in the feeling that coming back will take more than anticipated time.
The funda here is that, if you are sad then its okay to be sad and cry your eyes and at the same time allow only a day or two for this and snap out of the sad ritual once you have done mourning and then do not go back to that emotion.